Tuesday, August 9, 2011

stress

my mom went into the hospital friday morning. she just couldn't breathe. turns out she has pulmonary arterial hypertension, which basically means her lungs are hardening and her heart is working extra hard to get oxygen to her body. she came home this morning. they're treating her with a boatload of meds, oxygen, and a motorized hospital bed. i'm so stressed out that i've been in a terrible amount of pain. and i've got a migraine. sucks to be me.

my mama is 72. she's aging. this time is not forever. and it so pains me to see her in pain. i want her to be with me forever. i so rely on her. she can annoy the heck out of me but i love her dearly. mamas are irreplacable. i hate to see her slipping away. and that's what this feels like.

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  1. Hi Beth, I'm a new follower of yours and I was reading through your post. I'm sorry to hear about your Mom's condition. I know how you feel though, my Dad had COPD(Chronic Obstruction Pulmonary Disease)and he passed away on the 28th of November 2006. Spend as much time with her and just love her. It is going to be hard seeing her suffer, because she is your Mom and she is the one that is suppose to be the strong one, but now that roll is reversed. Making your peace with her and her condition will help you so very much in the end.
    Therese

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