is that not a ridiculous driving force?!? it's makes me make poor choices that only take into consideration the immediate moment, and boy have i made a --ton-- of bad, stupid choices; with my money, my time, my friends, and most importantly, my dear beloved family. i'm afraid i've hurt them so deeply over this issue that it's unforgivable. i can't believe they still love me as they do!
and i think the core issue is my relationship with God. i'm close to Him when He's comforting me, but in day to day life i just seem to let Him slide. it's just not a wise way to live! i have so far to go! it seems insurmountable. very frustrating. i just can't do it; get over this need for comfort.
i'm so broken right now, God. forgive me.
addition--hey, edvard munch fans! (the amazing artist who painted this amazing painting) it has come to my attention that there's an awesome site on artsy.net devoted to all things munch. go! visit! learn!