it's been too long!

i have endometriosis. one of those things. anyway. i was in terrible pain by the end of the summer and i finally went to see my ob/gyn. seems i had an endometrial cyst the size of a large orange. my last surgery to clean out the stuff was three years ago. so i figure i'm looking at a surgery or a giant cyst every three to five years for the rest of my life. so i decided to have a total hysterectomy. soooooo....

i had the surgery six weeks ago. i'm finally not sleeping all day and feel like i can do stuff again. yay! but i've been feeling kind of depressed about the no baby thing. never to experience the baby kicking.... bitter. it'll just take awhile to grieve the loss.